My blog speaks for me.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Dear blogger,
You are not alone. In fact, you are far from alone. There are so many people who are feeling exactly the same way as you right now: hopeless, depressed, anxious, useless, etc. Whether it’s because their parents got a divorce, or a loved one passed away, or they’re not doing so well in school, or maybe they are facing relationship problems. Everyone has their own individual problem. And sometimes, all they want is someone to tell them they care. Now Farina i want you to take a deep breath and read this sentence slowly out loud to yourself: “It will get better.” Did you do it? Good. Now do it again. “It will get better.” It will. I know that your problems may seem like they will go on forever, but they won’t. I promise. One of my favorite quotes is “everything will be okay in the end.” It’s short and sweet, and oh so true. You have so much strength and ability inside you, even if you don’t see it yourself. There is a warrior inside you that just hasn’t been discovered yet, and pushing through those hard time will make you realize it’s there. So whenever you’re feeling down, repeat that sentence above to yourself over and over. Write it on a post-it note and stick it on your mirror, on your desk, in your school notebook, anywhere you want. It will get better. You are strong. You are brave. You're worth everything. Don’t ever forget that.
You know you're nobody until you're talked about. And i really hate it when im being misunderstood. Im type of girl who responds to guys who smile at me because i want to be friendly. I mean its not like im gonna go out with him or whatsoever. Some girls are just jealous of me. Im not a flirt and when im in a relationship i stay loyal to one guy. Im also the type of girl who stares hard at the board when i does not understand what the teacher is teaching. I act like a kid at times because i miss my childhood. I rather gets hurt by truths than lies. Im the type of girl who hold on to memories even if it hurts. Thats the type girl I am. Im the only one who knows me best. So dont judge me if you dont know me. Some dudes just dont understand me. Im still broken, i dont wish to be tied down yet. I know you dudes are unhappy that i rejected you guys and not vice versa. I no longer believe in relationships. Why start, when you know it wont work out in the end. And because of all the shits people have been giving me i find it hard to get along with everyone around me because they’ve all become walking actors. Everything about them is just surreal. Their real feelings are covered by a mask to give an extremely false impression.
Some people just cant see someone happy. They will destroy that persons happiness. And happiness isn’t a feeling, it’s a choice. It’s a choice of forgetting all of the bullshit, forgetting the fact that life is a bitch and people let you down. You have to be there for yourself in order for somebody to be there for you. Happiness doesn’t come over night, it grows. It gets torn down all the time but always manages to slip through the cracks and come back. And it only comes back when you choose to let it. People say that many things in life never last. But the truth is, you never lose these things till you let them. Life is about making choices; hanging on, holding back, and letting go. Things do last, but only if you and the people involved make the choice to make it so. I've been through a lot this year. Someday everything will all make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason.
Love Farina
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